It’s completely normal to bounce between thought and being in the moment.  I know myself well enough to know that when Harlon is happy and in the moment, then I am happy.  It’s easy as pie.

It is in the thought that I look at ways of building upon the foundation of peace of mind, building strength, minimizing variation, diversifying my happiness portfolio for longterm growth while still maintaining a high tolerance for risk.

Part of being happy is being happy with not being happy all the time.   Noticing where my thoughts go can be a useful exercise in filling in square pegs with round holes, but it is only an exercise when it is in my mind.  I notice where my thoughts go and then exit thought and set the stage for action. This all happens in a blink of an eye, or does it?

I’m making things sound more complicated than they are. I think I find a certain amount of calmness and reassurance by enabling complexity.  It’s a sound effect that reminds me that I am alive.

As I explore where my thoughts go, that’s a moment of awareness waiting to happen.  The awareness happens when I bring the thought back to myself, be present in the moment and the thought is assimilated into my reality.  At that point I can go on auto pilot, I have the knowledge from life experience and the confidence that comes with wisdom to know that I can trust the process, my thought process, my choices. It’s OK for me to believe in myself.

It’s OK to fuck up.

My brain is a noisy machine sometimes, but it has stood the test of time and it requires minimal supervision.

I haven’t sold the farm, I am not under new management. I am changing, I am still me.

And I think about this, that and the other thing.  And I do this, that and the other thing.

I’m taking some time for myself, I’m taking some time off from my mind, I am shutting down the computer, not recharging the phone, I’ve got plans for the week, things that need to get done.  Stuff I want to start that will be good for myself.

Good for you!

Actions speak louder than words they say, if I am silent it means I am busy, don’t be offended, it’s just my awkwardness acting up socially. For me, things are out of balance and too much is virtual and then, for me, communication breaks down.

Ring the alarm by pressing power off.

Excuse me while I power down and kiss the sky.

Everything is as it is as needed.

Another hole in my head means more oxygen to the heart.