I grew up gay
– without any role models
– without any heroes
– with a message that I would live a lonely life
– attacked and beaten during walks at night more than once
– with a foregone conclusion:
my life would end by my own hands or by the violent hands of others,
but I survived.
I lived with HIV
– without any hope
– without a future
– with a message that I would die an ugly death
– images of protesters with placards that AIDS is a punishment from GOD
– without a longterm plan:
my life would end soon so why plan for the future,
but I survived.
Now what?
proto credit Harlon Davey
I have the same thought, but for different reason. I sometimes wonder why I survived and what I am supposed to be doing with my life.
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Thanks LauraBelle, for me it’s comforting that there are others who, for different reasons, are asking themselves the same question. I wonder what the root of this is? Is it the NEW mid-life crisis? Or is it the NEW existentialism and what is the meaning of life? For the next while I am trying (key word – trying) to observe when I feel this way and when I don’t. Maybe in that process I might start developing an answer to that question. My first observation is when I feel isolated or a prolonged sense of loneliness then the NOW WHAT question percolates. I’ll keep you posted on this journey, and I wish you wellness and enlightenment on yours – and look forward to future moments of intersecting with you. Peace, Harlon.
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Hello! I posted a link to your great poem on my blog! I hope it’s okay.
https://lmgcomic.wordpress.com/2015/01/21/lmgs-internet-buffet-anger-issues/#comment-771
Thank you!
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It is more than OK, it is fabulous, and I liked your observation on the commonality that you and I and others are experience. Thanks for the compliment and thanks for your sincerity and consideration. Peace!
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Thank you very much for the kind words! I hope you are blessed with much happiness!! 💕💛✨
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NOW is living in the present moment. NOW is what is, and what will ever be.
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NOW is what.
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