I haven’t been feeling well
but I know I’ll get better
it’s just because we’ve been getting
too much rainy weather.
Sometimes I wish someone would hold me
other times I wish they would let go
things will get better
if I move to San Diego.
I worry about my Mother
I think we’re getting close to the end
I am present to care
and the son becomes the best friend.
I worry about my bank account
and retiring on just a dime
who will care for me?
I know all good things come in good time.
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Harlon
I had many of the same thoughts worrying about my grandparents. The greatest blessing is I stayed, held their hand till the last breath.
Hugs
M
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π in return.
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I admire your courage and your candor, Harlon. We all share these needs you touch upon. We worry and we wonder. We squint uncertainly into the barrel of life. We spend decades thinking we are at gunpoint. Then we find out it’s a special camera Hafiz invented, that reveals us. He’s being kind. We’ve asked him not to use the flash. We’ve asked him to wait until we give the signal. Makes the work a little tricky. All those years of waiting for the loaded calamity. The beauty is when the trigger is pulled: flowers open, hearts open, wallets open, skies open, eyes open. Music happens. Hats come back in fashion. Cats talk and arthritis wanes.
Like that. Your mother is lucky to have a Harlon like you.
Peace
Michael
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Again Michael, your words are so wonderful.
Friends forever π Harlon
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I really wish you well love
Hugs smiles and miracles to you Harlon
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And I, to you, from the deepest part of my heart. xo Harlon
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Thank you Love
Xoxo
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It’s funny, I feel your love.
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Well that isn’t a bad thing. This world and people need to feel love and share it
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You are the sweetest Harlon
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Blessings to you Harlon
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I love you, for sentimental reasons.
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Aww, you’ve touched my my heart.
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Have to believe that everything happens for a reason..
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You are right, living in denial isn’t really living. Living means dealing with the difficult and the light – and that is what makes living so beautiful; the variations, the vividness.
Thank you for your comment. Harlon
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Where’s the formation photo? lol jk
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Exactly! I like what you picked up on. These virtual connections are so therapeutic for me. Thank you. xo H
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sending healing thoughts and prayers to you and your mother. I know these are the trying times that we will all experience and I hope I too can find the strength when my turn comes, but for now, you’re in my heart and prayers Harlon β€
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I just wanted to send my very best to your mother. It can be so tough, but your support will mean a lot. And I think you’re right, good things will come and times will change and from the negative will be a sliver of a silver lining and hope. Β β₯
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I love that line “sliver of a silver lining”. Maybe I should get a tattoo π
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I hope you and your Mom have benefitted from the time together. I may be stepping into that role with my mother. May your choices be guided by love, Brad
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Thank you Brad, and if I can support you in anyway, I am there for you. We can learn from the experiences of others and I believe that is how we become BETTER.
Hugs, Harlon
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Thanks for the kind offer Harlon. I appreciate the kind offer. For sure, we benefit from sharing the challenges and joys of our journey. hugs!
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Sorry to hear of your situation Harlon. In my lil red dot, we do not have a welfare system. Financial aid is limited and many of us fend for selves. As the silver haired population grows, our government is also trying to see how. Many silver haired here work past their 70s to keep economic viability. Sad state of the world. Take care, be strong. It has to get better…I pray.
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Thank you, and I agree, things will get better. This is just life and we can’t deny the difficult parts of it. It seems that we are facing a crisis of care – and that concerns me. Rather than a knee-jerk reaction, I think we need to be ready that the world is going to be difficult for some people, and I still believe we can do better than just allowing it to be.
xo Harlon
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Fully agree. We will all be affected one way or another. Thanks for commentingπ
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So stressful for you. I’m sorry.
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Thanks Cindy, it is in many ways stressful, but then again, so is traffic. I think the power and the meaningfulness I will get out of this experience will be something I treasure, although in it’s moments, it certainly can be difficult. That’s life, right?
xo Harlon
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Cherish this time with your mother. I’m glad you can be her friend and a good son. The time for your next adventure will come. I’m sure of it!
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I believe so as well. xo Harlon
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Hi Harlon!
I am moving out of California (and back to Northern Idaho) as it is So expensive to live here!
I caution you to look at things like healthcare, insurance, taxes, housing, etc., etc.!
I admire the spirit to make the move but plan with care!
And yes, Mom! I am in the ” same boat re stay or go”.
And as well…
The ” who will take care of me” is a wave that I let roll by ( as it is aka the voice of fear/ insecurity/negative projection).
Practicing gratitude and abundance…
Always ever-present but a state of mind that takes nurturing and God, the blessings of mindfulness ( my greatest chronic illness “coping skill”).
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Thank you. The moving to California is more of a fantasy than anything else, but no matter where we are, giving ourselves permission to dream is important. I live in Canada, so the move is highly impractical, it’s just these darn winters can be tough on you.
xo Harlon
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Let the good times roll ! π
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Yes everything happens in good time π
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Thanks for being there for your mother β€
You are not alone when you ask: “Who will care for me?”
With all the latest government proposals for our healthcare needs, I’m also anxious about what these proposals, if approved, would mean for my two sons should a health crisis hit me in the future. In the name of “smaller government” and “trickle down economics,” we the people without big bank accounts are losing our safety nets should a crisis — job loss, sickness, disability — hit us.
Good things do not come if we don’t fight for them.
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I agree, I have been in healthcare advocacy for a longtime, focusing particularly on the connection between poverty and health. here’s a bit more of a background on my philosophy to effective healthcare strategy http://wp.me/p4hySg-uo
I believe that health care is being too shaped by corporate interests that will profit from them and that we have lost the element of dignity.
Longterm care and end-of-life issues are easy to ignore because we don’t want to think about them, but we must, because we all end up there, one way or another. Advocacy, acitviism and citizen engagement are crucial, we cannot be silent (or silenced) in designing our future.
Peace, Harlon
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Thanks for sharing the link.
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