I am on vacation
but today I am in so much pain
I fear today will just be a staycation
in my gloomy room
all alone,
keeping the sunlight away,
I came to escape the gloom.
I wish I wasn’t built like this,
the three little pigs could have a feast on
because none of my walls are that strong
they could see right through me.
The weather at home
is so depressing,
and where I am now is hot and liberating
but I can’t seem to walk away
or walk too deep into my paradise lost,
it feels overwhelming
I want to go to the beach,
in fact, I want to get lost,
but it’s a destination I doubt I will reach.
I want to bridge the bridge,
but I am trying to figure out how
to cross it, when I feel weak
to live with the lessons that pain teach.
Well, I made it through it,
it wasn’t pretty to watch
there was no grace
but I just moved along, at my own pace.
I kept my promise,
you may want to keep your distance
because I may just fall,
and people will think I am just another drunk tourist.
Who cares what others think?
If I can just be in the pain
then maybe I can do more than I think.
Maybe not everything,
I can’t fix a kitchen sink.
So I walked to the beach.
It wasn’t easy
I’ll tell you that
when it’s only you
and no one to help you with that,
but sometimes living with pain
is that you just have to try to go for it.
Hoping you find relief in the sunshine, Harlon. You deserve it, bro. Just got back from a two week trip to take my wife to the doc–chronic pain, chronic this and that, chronic something. Chronic anything leads to chronic uncertainty, and it all eats away. So I know the spiral. May you ride the updrafts of confidence and color and compassion, and know freedom from pain…
Sharing joy with you!
Michael
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I am honoured to be sharing the joy with you.
On another note, chronic is such a tough word and a tough state be in. I am wishing wellness for your wife and that she finds, probably by many different ways of thinking and feeling, that she finds escape or at least able to step away from the overwhelming component of pain.
You’ve got each other – treasure that – because that is the best medicine.
Peace, Harlon
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You deserve this vacation and I hope you continue to take your pain to the beach. If you’re going to be in pain either way, might as well make it in paradise!
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I’ll remember to pack it, along with my thong, oh no, that would just be painful for everyone else 🙂
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Take deep breaths of the fresh, salty air and clear your mind of any thoughts. Be in the present moment remembering that is really all we truly ever have.
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Yes, I think that is what I am learning, is to be present in the moment and to be OK with that, indeed that is truly all we ever have. Hugs, Harlon
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Indeed! Enjoy! 🙂
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Oh, Harlon. That absolutely sucks! Pain sucks. I am going to wish the sun to melt it away from you and wash it into the sea where it will drift far, far away.
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Thank you, I am so eager to dive into the ocean and let myself melt into the water. It is such a powerful way to heal. Hugs, Harlon
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I am eager for you! Here’s to the cleansing water! Hugs back at you, Harlon
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Well done. Stick with it
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Hurry ! Ant let the sun shine and the hot sand take care of you… 🙂
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That is the plan!
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Sorry you are in pain Harlon. I hope that where you are on vacation can alleviate your pain.
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