In the middle of everything
in the middle of nothing at all
somewhere in the middle I find myself
and I am standing and I am crying.
I am standing in the hall.
I am waiting for the fall.
Walk through the fire, you may get burned.
Swim in the water and you might find yourself drowned.
I let the emotions surround me
I let them run over me
and I find myself asking “why?”
but I stop myself.
I am just standing here
minding my own business.
I’m sad that what is around me will all soon be gone.
Sad is just what I am feeling from where I am standing in the middle of right now.
A Patient Voice 
Loss runs so deep. Thank you for sharing your heart breaking sadness, Harlon. Hugs and healing light to you ❤️
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That’s just it Harlon in the middle of now..i cry too Harlon and I ask the same questions and I’m still waiting for an answer
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Stand up (so easy to say) !…
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🤗🤗❤
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Good to hear from you
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Sweet thoughts for you Harlon, i send you a pice of french sun and all colors of the forest in November, much love to you.
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Hugs, Harlon. We should have coffee sometime. Let me know.
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I agree. I will see you soon.
Hugs, Harlon
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Moving through the grief
You are brave to feel sadness
Mindfulness at work.
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It’s funny JoAnna that you should put my thoughts into the context of Mindfulness – it often feels that I am not doing things right or I could be doing a better job of it all, but I am just being mindful of what I am feeling and letting that be what is real and the rest I think just falls into place – thanks for the kind reminder that I think I’m OK. And I am OK with that. xo Harlon
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Good! I’m glad you’re okay. I remember you wrote a while back about learning mindfulness. I need reminders, too. ❤
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I am saddened by your feeling sad, Harlon. Keep in mind that your are in the middle of a lot of people who care for you. Healing light and love your way!
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Thank you Eric, and I agree, it is having this of support, in many forms, and trusting that I can reach out and that others will reach out to me that creates that web of support, and with that support I think things are just better; richer, deeper. What is that expression? No man is an island. Well, I am glad that I am not an island and I am grateful for all the wonderful people (virtual included) that help make me feel like I am a “continent”. 🙂 That sounds funny after I type it but I think you get the point. Hugs Harlon
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Of course I get it. But which continent are you feeling like? 🙂
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It “depends”, oh wait, that’s my incontinence, I think what I really want to do is travel and be all continents or a bit of all of them. How fun would that be? Harlon
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OMG, he’s really going to go with the adult diapers humor. I believe “fun” can be also be associated with whomever we are with. The locale seems secondary.
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The dull sites around you will soon have light, happy voices and sun on you checks. I was at the hospital today for falling down stairs. Plenty damage to heal but I was blessed by the biggest blessing, I didn’t break my neck. Both of us have to take life slow, we’ll have a chance to heal. Sending love.
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Sorry to hear about your experience, it sounds rather unfortunate but I have learned, certainly through your wisdom, to find the bright spots and be grateful. Yes, this is the time to take things slow; it’s the best way to heal. Much love to you, hugs. Harlon
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did you get my call me email. sounded like you might have new info from doctors, I’m here if you want to talk or email.
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Grief is my new partner-in-crime…your beautiful words are an echo…here’s to strength and that unknown journey our loved ones are on!
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Thank you. Misery loves company doesn’t feel like the best expression, I like how you put it “to the strength and unknown journey our loved ones are on”. Thank you for that, it was a nice sparkle to my day. I appreciate our connection. Hugs, Harlon
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What a beautifully sad poem. Big hugs Sweet sweet Harlon!
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I think sometimes there is beauty in sadness. I just want to make sure I don’t dwell there too long. Here’s to a change of scenery! Wouldn’t it be nice to be walking through a park holding hands and talking. Now that thought makes me happy. Thank you Stella, always. xoxo Harlon
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Awww that is the sweetest Harlon! I would love that! I have a tendency to dwell but I’m trying to break myself of that. Hugs sweet sweet Harlon
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Sending hugs. xx
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Thanks. Is it just me or do you find this time of year a bit testing – I hope you at least got to enjoy some splendid autumn colours, there’s nothing like a beautiful autumn day. It’s the grey and the dark that I could live without. Hugs, Harlon
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