I can hear it through the walls
People are having parties, laughing and having fun.
I am in my new apartment, home from dialysis,
half-unpacked and alone.
One might think I am living the cavalier life
gallivanting and having fun
but life is not a party
when you are just a party of one.
I am not doing a very good job
of not letting myself get down.
People are reaching out to me
but I respond like I am not around.
It seems to me that with all that is happening
that it makes sense that I am stressed.
I know things will get better
but right now I am down and depressed.
Your words bring such comfort to others – I hope that you are able to find comfort and peace in knowing that you matter to so many.
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My sweet Harlon! I must hear from you! How are you?
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Reblogged this on Survivors Blog Here.
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Sending so much love ❤
This is a huge life change for you…and change is hard enough when we feel well. Be gentle with yourself my friend. I have been challenged and not nice to myself in the past and I can tell you it is much better to be challenged and kind.
I miss you…I send you beautiful white healing light. ❤ ❤
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Thank you for sharing this really beautifully written piece. Sending positive vibes your way ❤
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I am so sorry to hear you are going through that, I had suicidal thoughts about a month ago and was in a very dark place but I have bounced back…never happy but complacent xoxo
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I’ll get there, but it does feel like hard work.
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It’s hard to be in a place so dark, but give yourself time to come to terms with your situation. There are better days to come, remember to smile on both the bad and the good days, because God made them all. It’ll be well, as long as you believe it. Much love. ❤Praying for you
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Thank you for your kind comment – and yes you are right, my current situation is difficult and I think the best thing to do is be real about that. Then the next real thing I can do is accept that things will get better, and indeed better days are to come. Peace, Harlon
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I agree with Isabel: get out in nature and with Kelly: “an entire community is thinking of you, sending warm and positive vibes your way, and waiting to hear from you.” Maybe consider one of those people who is reaching out to you for just a little contact. I’m sending good wishes and gentle hugs to you. ❤
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Thanks JoAnna, and those are wise words – getting into nature. Perhaps that is why I am struggling so much – it’s winter…and it’s been a very grey one here, so nature doesn’t provide me with the therapy that it normally can, but indeed reaching out to this wonderful supportive community can. That is what I did, and look at all the love that was returned. This was a difficult post for me to publish, but sharing the difficult stuff makes it less difficult, especially when people respond with care. Thank you for yours! Much love, Harlon
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I’ve experienced that too here on WP. We are here for each other. Much love and big hugs. 🙂
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You are not alone Harlon. You are here with us. Give yourself the time you need to adjust to a new place and way of being. Sending a hug xoxo
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I didn’t realize I missed you until your post popped up…there are no words but I hope you find the strength to let the ones who love you know you’re home!
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Thank you for your genuine words. I was concerned that this posting might seem disturbing, but I think it’s important that we talk about what is real for us, and in turn, that can encourage us to support each other – and that’s what you have done. Much love, Harlon
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I will continue to think of you and send my prayers on many wings…
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Love ya
It’s time to come to Canada, we can take care of each other. EM me back sweet Harlon. 🙂
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Much love to you ❤️
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Hurry up, dear, all my thoughts with you.
Dominique
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Blessings to you
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Get out in nature. Watch the birds if it’s a park. They have so little but they never seem worried 😊 Take care ❤️
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That is the best advice and has always been my go to peace of mine, I have to say that I struggle with Canadian winters…a big part of me is just counting the days so spring. I am learning with depression, at least for me, is to set small goals, and realistic expectations. I think I just need to be patient, creative and how nice it will be when winter is over. Hugs, Harlon
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Keep smiling, it helps 🌹 (lots of roses for you)
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I, too, thought we hadn’t heard from you in a while. The key line of your post: “I know things will get better” – yes, they will. Every thing has its season. In the meantime, know that an entire community is thinking of you, sending warm and positive vibes your way, and waiting to hear from you. Peace to you.
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Thanks Kelly, and yes, what makes this powerful is that I do have a community that supports me. I think what I am going through is temporal – but it also feels difficult and I feel tested – but knowing that people care encourages me to elevate and to be patient, it’s just a rough patch – and joy lays ahead. Hugs, Harlon
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I’ve thinking I hadn’t seen or heard from you..life throws curve balls but they can also slow down..Harlon the best piece of advice I can give you is metaphorical but it works for me..you are a soldier of one on a army of the few…..and God sake please stay away from the black hole
As always Sheldon
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I am trying my best.
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Harlen just dropped by to see how you are doing
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I am hanging in there, but it does have a sense of barely hanging in there. I am putting a lot of pressure on spring, I think that’s what I need to turn things around.
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Even when you think your truly not bad is a state of mind not a feeling…..i know these words cuz I’ve live them also
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Its not easy confronting your demons especially doing it everyday I have had a headache on and off since last Monday
Life is never easy pal…especially when you feel like you are the choosen one
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Blessings and prayers 🙏❤️🌿🦋☀️
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Be good to yourself, Harlon. ‘Liking’ this in support and solidarity. 🙂
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Thank you, it’s nice to receive a message that reminds me of the power of support and solidarity. Hugs, Harlon
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Stay strong my love. We are here.
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Dearest Sue, thank you – and what a delight it is to hear from you, maybe that’s what I need is to know that I am still real in some circles and that people care. xoxo Harlon
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