It is difficult to describe this feeling
but it is familiar,
it feels similar to something I have felt before.
I have been hiding in my mind for a long time,
it’s time for me to step out now and experience living again.
The last couple of years were extremely challenging for me
and like other hardships of the past
I get through it.
This feeling feels a bit like fear and trepidation.
Butterflies in my stomach.
Change, the unknown, things that can play with your mind
if you let them.
And I will let them, but I will not let them control me.
An after thought,
things won’t change until I start changing things.
I can’t go on living the way I have been living,
hiding, exploring, healing the certainties and the unknowns
that are all in my mind.
This feeling is like standing in a quiet moment
and watching a stream run by
and feeling that I can give in, and let go of something
and then simply, join the stream and go with the flow.
I am at a place now where I can integrate my experiences
into the person that steps outside and says,
“I am here”.
So beautiful! I can completely relate with this.
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This is beautiful and quietly, wisely exciting. Take your time as you continue to heal. I agree with Rosaliene – small steps are okay.
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Great to hear from you, as always, Joanna – it always puts a smile on my face. I think you for the reconfirmation, I think the best way for me to move forward in a way that is authentic and sustainable is slowly. Baby steps for me! Hugs, Harlon
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Hugs to you, Harlon. Those baby steps will add up!
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Small steps forward. Sometimes, that is all it takes to bring about the change we seek in our lives.
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Thank you so much Rosaliene, you signaled something that is very important for me for a sustained move forward, too take things slowly, one small step at a time. It is what will help me, thank you so much for the kind and gentle nudge. Truly, Harlon
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So much wisdom here Harlon. Perhaps itβs time to truly embrace your own words? You are not alone πππ
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Thanks Val, your message meant a lot to me. I think my challenge is I find myself at this place of empowerment, but I don’t fully embrace it, and often get hindered by self-doubt or fear of the unknown. You are right, I am not alone and I hope to find the inner-strength and count of the strength of those around me to “launch”, slowly, but surely. Respectfully, Harlon
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This sounds like a triumphant clarion call, Harlon!
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Thank you, that’s a great way of putting it. It does feel like a celebration, one which I hope I can fully embrace.
I have been thinking of you and how things are on the wonderful West Coast, I do miss the beauty of Vancouver
and all of it’s gems. I hope you are able to enjoy all the splendour! Big hugs, Harlon
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Thank you, Harlon! The West Coast is still stunningly beautiful, I always thought that Puerto Vallarta was a tropical West End…
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I’m here with you all the way!!!!!!
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Thank you so much, I know I can always count on you. And I hope you know you can do the same for me. I hope you are feeling well. Much love, Harlon
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Being here on here is a step in the right direction
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You examine your self so beautifully.
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