I am sorry if I have seemed distant
I am sorry I don’t return your calls,
it’s not because I don’t care.
I am lethargic
because I can’t get to sleep.
If I start to drift off
I never drift that deep.
I wish I could get out of the grey
and fall into the black.
Somewhere I became afraid
I would never come back.
I find it hard to focus
and express myself
so I tend
to just keep things to myself.
I take pills, 3 of those and 2 of them
but they don’t seem to work anymore.
I think it’s because I feel anxiety
that I have never felt before.
What I wouldn’t give for a normal sleep?
An old-fashioned good night’s rest.
I don’t feel strong, I could feel better
and I don’t know if I will ever be at my best.