I am stepping out of one life and into another

it is a step in the right direction but it feels downwards

that is my conclusion.

I am settling in, I have settled down

it seems I am settling for less than I deserve

and that is cause for some confusion.

I am in the moment at this moment

it’s unclear to me why this moment is so scary

I am afraid and hope this moment is  only my illusion.

I am living in the present tense

and living in the present feels pretty tense

that is why I am uncertain if I will ever find a solution.