I can hear it through the walls
People are having parties, laughing and having fun.
I am in my new apartment, home from dialysis,
half-unpacked and alone.
One might think I am living the cavalier life
gallivanting and having fun
but life is not a party
when you are just a party of one.
I am not doing a very good job
of not letting myself get down.
People are reaching out to me
but I respond like I am not around.
It seems to me that with all that is happening
that it makes sense that I am stressed.
I know things will get better
but right now I am down and depressed.