Although the snow is falling gently,

I am feeling like I am acting mentally.

Sometimes, I think I am going to lose my mind.

As I move from one chapter

that as caregiver

to what is after

how do I anticipate what is the other.

I am uncertain,

can I keep going on

and still stay strong

because at some point it will only be me.

I guess the best thing is to keep on going,

be loving and caring

but I am struggling because I am not growing.

Sometimes, this feels like it is going nowhere.

It will all be fine

in the end

but when I think of that, that is

where the darkness begins to descend.