Although the snow is falling gently,
I am feeling like I am acting mentally.
Sometimes, I think I am going to lose my mind.
As I move from one chapter
that as caregiver
to what is after
how do I anticipate what is the other.
I am uncertain,
can I keep going on
and still stay strong
because at some point it will only be me.
I guess the best thing is to keep on going,
be loving and caring
but I am struggling because I am not growing.
Sometimes, this feels like it is going nowhere.
It will all be fine
in the end
but when I think of that, that is
where the darkness begins to descend.