It is difficult to describe this feeling
but it is familiar,
it feels similar to something I have felt before.
I have been hiding in my mind for a long time,
it’s time for me to step out now and experience living again.
The last couple of years were extremely challenging for me
and like other hardships of the past
I get through it.
This feeling feels a bit like fear and trepidation.
Butterflies in my stomach.
Change, the unknown, things that can play with your mind
if you let them.
And I will let them, but I will not let them control me.
An after thought,
things won’t change until I start changing things.
I can’t go on living the way I have been living,
hiding, exploring, healing the certainties and the unknowns
that are all in my mind.
This feeling is like standing in a quiet moment
and watching a stream run by
and feeling that I can give in, and let go of something
and then simply, join the stream and go with the flow.
I am at a place now where I can integrate my experiences
into the person that steps outside and says,
“I am here”.