It is 2:38 pm
and my Mother hasn’t gotten out of bed yet.
It makes me wonder,
is she dead or alive.
There is no reward for that,
even though the posters say so.
I guess the question is,
am I really ready for this?
I know there is always tomorrow
and the day after next,
but as a caregiver
with health issues of my own
and losing my best friend (again)
how much energy
can I put into the day after next.
I think, although I don’t know,
if I just take one day at a time,
that is probably my best bet,
yet sometimes I wonder
if that’s how we are perceived
in memory and media
and our “alleged” universal healthcare system
as the person
better of dead than alive.
A Patient Voice 
. My bosom goes out to you and your mama – perhaps there is some break tending usable where your mama could hitch for a hebdomad or two so you can taking into custody your breathing spell…subscribe serious tending…
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My wife and i both have a lot of health issues (especially my wife). I am a retired teacher, and our health insurance is again being changed (to what is worse than what he had previously). People need to care more about life and people and not so much about $.
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After a lovely yoga class, a fellow student & I began to speak about the caregiving roles that colour our world – I was struck by his comment that we are in the midst of ‘the long good-bye”, despite the hard days, we are given this time, and hopefully there will be no regrets. My heart goes out to you and your Mom – perhaps there is some respite care available where your Mom could stay for a week or two so you can catch your breath…take good care…
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A big hug, Harlon ❤
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Sweet thoughts and pray for you and your mother.
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Your exchange with beliefpatrol is a good one
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A difficult situation. Are there Respite or Home Health Care services available? Do you have any siblings or family who could give you a break? You can’t do everything by yourself. Perhaps your city or town provides Nursing services. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your Mom.
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One day at a time, one hour at a time, one foot in front of the other… and each day somehow takes care of itself. But do remember to take care of you, and you will find the moments of grace. Sending hugs and prayers to you, dear one.
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Soft hugs to you sweet Harlon and many blessings
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Hugs Harlon.. Stephen Jenkinson who wrote “Die Wise” will give a talk and a workshop in our town soon.. And you are having a real life “workshop”. May you find some peace and beauty in whatever this day brings. And thank you for sharing and reflecting your experiences here. ❤
Kristina
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i wish for you a moment of silent relief!
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Thank you! Sometimes that is all I need to turn a bad day, which I expect to be a day of worry, into a day of contentment.
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We cone to place of questions
We even to question our own mortality
Being on the front lines is no joke
But for some that’s where we need to be
We are the army of the few
As Sheldon Always
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Thanks Sheldon, your words always mean a lot to me. Truly, Harlon
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Though we’ve never met
I truly believe we are friends
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I feel that as well.
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