I don’t know what I am feeling
sometimes. My life is not compartmentalized,
there is not structure, work or leisure
time with a partner,
it’s just me
and it feels like
that feeling I don’t know.
It feels like my life is a smear
there are no edges or boundaries
and what I feel is
the smear.
I am not one colour,
I am not in one spot,
I am just a blend of colours
a blend of moments.
I am facing a final curtain
of mixed emotions
there are things of which I am certain.
I am
I suppose
just in my moment.
A Patient Voice 
to all of the above comments, I agree and couldn’t have said it better ❤
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I feel the same sometimes! I don’t see you as a smear or a blend! I see you vibrant and shiny! You are a fabulous human!:) We are both in our moment Harlon. Let your awesome show in your moment!😘😊😎
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You’ve been living your life for 2 people who and your mom,its impossible for you to have a clear identity,that’s driving you up the wall,dealing with life and finding a balance,be good to yourself,take time to reflect like you’ve doing
A soldier of one in an Army of the few
Sheldon
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I like the blend of colours and the above comments. Without programing, the possibilities are abundant.
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May be a very good thing! Too many are where they merely were programmed to be… like mere robots! 🙂
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a blend of moments is a good image for us all
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