I feel like I have been through a lot

at times it feels like too much

it feels like seasons are passing

and I am not turning out to be all I can be

and nothing is happening

I am becoming a lesser version of me

and it feels like I am trespassing.

I feel like I have broken so many of the rules

that  feels like treason.

I guess what I really want

is someone to stay with and believe in me.

I guess what I really want to know,

God, and the power I never really invested in you,

can you tell me, is there a reason?