Down and Counting

I can hear it through the walls

People are having parties, laughing and having fun.

I am in my new apartment, home from dialysis,

half-unpacked and alone.

One might think I am living the cavalier life

gallivanting and having fun

but life is not a party

when you are just a party of one.

I am not doing a very good job

of not letting myself get down.

People are reaching out to me

but I respond like I am not around.

It seems to me that with all that is happening

that it makes sense that I am stressed.

I know things will get better

but right now I am down and depressed.