Every part of this
every line of your skin
those sounds that come in
and come out
all of this is familiar
it is something that I have lived through
in my mind
and in my body
is there a point when feelings like this
start to discontinue
or are they part of the perpetuity of the mind?
I have never really ever lived this moment
but I am having thoughts that I am believing
items I am recognizing
like it always does, passing by me
feels like searching
the feeling finds me
that’s how it feels when I am doing nothing.
It feels like I am always going it alone.
All of this
am I bored
am I distracted
wondering what I should be doing
this is all too familiar
when nothing starts to seem similar
there have been too many moments
of just killing time
it’s not like it is anything amazing
a different kind of uncertain
feeling a bit nervous
wondering what was I saying
and was it ever anything I was actually doing.
It is all familiar
all of life’s moments
how they hang around
until you just fill them
with the pieces of time that you are forgetting
the existence we are creating
I know myself so well
it’s like I am making it hard
for me to get to know myself better.
And where will I go
when I have learned this
over and over
the walls are concrete
but they are not solid
and the renovation
starts with just a feeling that I felt before
and again I am feeling parts of it
there never is a beginning.
just rediscovered fragments.