This is what it looks like.
I’m in a dark room standing in front of a door that is ajar.
On the other side of the door is light and it is beaming through that sliver opening into the darkness where I stand in this moment.
My hands are at my side. The door remains slightly ajar.
This is what if feels like.
It feels like my mind is spinning because there is so much I have to do.
Forgive myself. Love myself. Take care of myself.
Things. Things to do.
Leave the bad parts of the past behind.
It feels like every moment is a choice.
This is what I know.
This is change and this is what change feels like.
I’m overthinking this.
I have the life skills to handle any obstacle that gets in my way.
I need to get myself as healthy as I can.
All I have to do is relax and open the door and move through the threshold and walk into the light.
This is what I don’t know, at least in this moment.
I don’t believe in myself.
This is what I am going to do.