I have a hole above my heart

it’s there for good keeping.

It’s part of what is keeping me alive

but at the very same time

it means I can’t go swimming or running in the rain in my underwear,

every day it reminds me that I can’t do everything.

Another reminder.

I have a hole above my heart

and I see it each morning

it’s a reminder that something went very wrong

and it didn’t get better

but at the very same time

it means something is keeping me well

it’s like having another heart or a different way of breathing.

I have a hole above my heart

it’s becoming a part of me

I’ll be real and say that sometimes

I think it would have been better off if I had died

all of this, would simply be like sleeping

and wouldn’t that make life easy,

but at the very same time

it is my battle scar

it reminds me that I have the love and support to keep on going

and the courage and the tenacity to keep on fighting.