I have a hole above my heart
it’s there for good keeping.
It’s part of what is keeping me alive
but at the very same time
it means I can’t go swimming or running in the rain in my underwear,
every day it reminds me that I can’t do everything.
Another reminder.
I have a hole above my heart
and I see it each morning
it’s a reminder that something went very wrong
and it didn’t get better
but at the very same time
it means something is keeping me well
it’s like having another heart or a different way of breathing.
I have a hole above my heart
it’s becoming a part of me
I’ll be real and say that sometimes
I think it would have been better off if I had died
all of this, would simply be like sleeping
and wouldn’t that make life easy,
but at the very same time
it is my battle scar
it reminds me that I have the love and support to keep on going
and the courage and the tenacity to keep on fighting.
Brilliant……..enough to make me cry
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Thank you for noticing my post and above all, thank you for sharing your response to it. I think this is how we connect as humans, and life is better, I believe when we feel connected. Cheers, Harlon
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I related to your poem, battle scarred fits me well.
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Reblogged this on Stella’s Place and commented:
My sweet friend Harlon! He is a great human and a very talented writer!:)
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Dude, that photo!
I think you’re forever engraved in my memory now.
And my heart.
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Ironman has a hole in his chest that’s keeping him alive too – you’re both super heroes.
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Your beautiful words have touched my heart…you remind me of my father’s last days…he tried so hard to stay but in the end, we both had to let go…I’m glad you are still here fighting the good fight.
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Harlon, I am so sorry about your health issues and losing your mom. I lost my mom suddenly in July and it has been emotionally overwhelming so I can’t imagine what it would be like if I was fighting for my life too. I do know this, you are here for a reason and there is a greater purpose. I am not religious but I am spiritual. Just after my mom died two different family members felt compelled to enter rehab to get their lives back. So maybe your mom thought she could look after you better from a different realm. You help a lot of people with your writing and bare honesty. You help me know I am not alone and your attitude is inspirational. So thank you Harlon, for being you.
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Thank you for a great comment. Sometimes I wonder why do I write. I know it helps me and it’s great therapy. Hearing that you connect with my words and feel less alone is another great reason and I feel honoured. Thank you for allowing me to be me and letting me into your world. Hugs, Harlon
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Thank you for sharing this. It’s something we usually don’t see but need to know about. An honest and balanced perspective is good, especially when the positive side has the last word. You’re getting good at that skill. I’m so glad you’re here and have support to continue on!
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Thanks so much JoAnna, and thank you for your support, it’s part of what keeps me going. I am glad you picked up on something that I didn’t when I wrote this, that somehow when things seem tough and dark and I share those feelings, there is this part of me that will always end up on the positive side. Your reassurance reminded me to have faith in myself, because ultimately, I will be OK. Hugs, Harlon
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I’m so glad to know you know that. You will be OK. And you are loved. Hugs to you, Harlon.
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Toto, I’ve got a feeling we’re not in Kansas anymore.
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Harlon! I held my stomach tight as I read this. I was going to say this is my very favorite but all of your posts are. But this was so beautiful and tugged at my heart.. I’m so glad you are not sleeping but I know how you feel. Your picture is very beautiful too in many ways. I see a nice place to lay my head! Magnificent poem!❤️🌸
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Thanks Stella for a lovely comment. There is always a place on my chest for you to warm up to and feel safe. xoxo Harlon
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Aww thank you Harlon!! I’m cuddling up right now!!:)
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So well expressed, Harlon. May it keep you going with a good quality of life
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Oh my God! I love your looking at the brighter side. I know it takes effort but more power to you. Xo
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Much love to you
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